Sibling Scuffle

I donno where to begin...
Lately I've been feeling sad, lonely and deprived ...

It is regretful that my sister and I had fallen apart. It all began when she sense my unhappiness for her night out while I was all stressed out due to mom's hospitalisation. Everybody were busy with work. I had just embarked on a new job and my schedules in a mess and I'm losing myself.
She was not working then but prefers going out with her friends instead of accompanying mom in hospital - I can't possibly force her, could I?

So she's feeling bitter that her 16-years affair had finally ended and that she had no one to love and loving her. All I can say, Love need not necessary come from a lover, a spouse, etc. If being single is lonely, it is worse to be married yet still lonely.

What is marriage after all? Nothing guarantees anything. Being married need not really mean you'll definitely have a life partner who will always be there to cheer you up and make you feel good. If there's so many people showing off that their spouse dotes on them with expensive gifts, trips around the world, etc. Well, normally people only expose the good stuff and hide the bad stuff (this is LIFE!). Nobody would go around admitting that their spouse is having an affair, that their spouse been battering them, that they are struggling in that big house and posh car, that their job really sucks but they just got to hang on cos there's bills to pay, that their kids been having bad grades ...

If I can have my way, I'd rather you be spare from all these...

Whether you decided to stay single or to be married, I guess WE all have NO issues about it. We've been to too many visits and had managed to shut off all the unnecessary questioning from nosy aunties who never fail to ask "why is your sister still not married?". Over the years I've given them the same answer that they have decided that its pointless asking me.

But, I'm disappointed with those audacious photos you have decided to upload in your webspace. If you feel proud of those photos, do spare a thought for mom & dad. Mom is not very healthy and so is dad. Can you imagine how they would feel if they chance upon those photo?

Each of us are lucky and unlucky in in our own way.. we just got to see it.

You are lucky to be single, you have all the freedom and you can follow your heart to choose whatever you desire.
You are unlucky because you have yet to find that soulmate, build your life, build your career..

I am lucky to be married, I have a family, a job..
I am unlucky because I dont even know who I am now... what I have become...

I once feel bothered with my balooning body and I asked a lady who is plump "do you feel sad that you cannot buy all those clothes from Mango?".. she said confidently "No. I am special, my clothes are made specially just for me.."