당신을 감사하십시오

Semester 3 had begun. And Yes! I am still watching my Korean drama before going to bed. To-date, I've watched 'Princess Hours' 7 times! I don't know why but I just love that drama to the max. Perhaps I'm just a woman who melts watching romantic movies, dramas, etc.

Class so far so good. Although this semester seems a hectic ones with 2 public holidays in each month hence make up lesson here and there. I am likely to be heading to class 4 times a week this semester.

Attended my first 'Managing People' module yesterday. Had wanted to print my note before going to class but there was none in the student portal. Looks like another series of loose notes flying around again, I thought. However, was surprised that for this module, our lecturer had consolidate all the notes, schedules & Assignment into 1 binded booklet!  So cool! Now I don't need to worry about losing my notes again.

Why can't the school just standardised such procedures? Its neater & easier, isn't it? Event if they ask us to pay for it, I'd be more than willing. Rather than having to keep reminding myself to print my notes before lectures!

To my Teacher, 당신을 감사하십시오!

Will It Ever Stop?

I am very exhausted. I just don't know when will it end. I have no more strength to carry on. So tired of the mess in my life. The mess * keeps creating. * just don't value my presence.

There's nothing I look forward to anymore. In fact, I am so scared of tomorrow..

Should I just pack up and go? Leave everything behind?

At times I wonder, what have I done so wrong to deserve all these..
(ps: this is not another Korean drama. This is my life.. Pathetic, isn't it?)

Dragging My Feet Out

I'm feeling lazy. So Extremely Lazy! And, my latest laziness is:

I AM SO DAMN BLOODY LAZY TO GO TO SCHOOL!!!!!

Suddenly, I am feeling like I am the 'Bigung Mama' of Princess Hours (GOONG)! In real fact, I am of the status of Hwang-Hu Mama! Duh!!

I think I am an addict! They say, you only need to do drug once and there'll be second, third and so on.  Well, it started with just ONE! Now I am having real hard time kicking it off. If  I don't get my required dose, I can create havoc! I will throw my tantrums! I even slammed the earpiece on to my laptop when hubby dearest ask me out for fresh air, for ice-cream breaks, for 'sleep-early, dear' moment.

Don't stop me! And if you ever force me.. I will stomp out of the room sulking, banging my feet and slamming anything that come to sight! Now, I am so lazy to go to school! And, class supposed to start tomorrow! OH!! HOW??!!!

Ok. I don't do drug.. and still sees no reason to do so. I am talking about online korean dramas!! I am addicted to it! And Korean drama are super-long.. I've recently completed a 167 episodes x 2 parts (some even have 4 parts) in a space of 2 days! and the hunger for more just never stop.

How it started?
I am a woman who lack the luxury of watching TV programmes. My schedule is so jammed-packed! My work takes a lot of me, then I have classes after classes which I enrolled myself into (like as if I have nothing better to do) and the fact that I never have to do any household chores. At times, I don't even need to pour my drink or take my shoe from the cabinet when I am leaving home.

But, I am super-fortunate to have a husband who just love to spoil me further and I have buddies who will constantly remind me that it's time for our monthly dinner session to unwind and they never felt that I've abandoned them. I guess by now they realised what a workaholic I am and I just need to be drag out of work. I think, without them, I would have gone crazy with work by now. Hubby & Buddies, I really appreciate your effort to knock sense into me.. just bear with my tantrums, yah!

Two Sundays ago, while waiting for my tea to be served, I decided to sit on my sofa and meddle with the remote controls. I have long had trouble operating the TV and the channel box. I've yet to master the old TV set and here comes a new set with so many buttons that I don't know what the hell they are for. Each time I need so see image appearing on the screen, I will have to yell out for help and the kids will make sure something appear. All I do next it to press the UP & DOWN button for the channel or the volume.

So, there I was scrolling channels. I stopped at channel U and there was this interesting Korean drama.
As it is with all dramas, they appear in episodes. After it ended, I went searching on the internet for the full episodes cos I don't have the luxury of time to wait another week and another week.

I found it and completed all 167 episodes of 'Hearts of 19' (aka 'Pure 19') in a space of 3days.

Addiction for More and More..
It doesn't ends there. I hunger for more.. so I search for something new and found "Personal Taste" which I completed in 2 days. I want more!! So I was stuck with "Princess Hours (GOONG)" which I completed in 1 day. Then its 'Love Story in Harvard".


I need to kick the habit! Class is starting TOMORROW!! I am gonna have real hard time dragging my feet out.. Out of this Love Fantasy...

The stories are just too good to be true! So I asked my hubby "Do you really love me? But you never kiss me!". And so my hubby said "Different man have different style of showing their love..."

UUUUWWWWAAAHHHHH!!! I want to be like Bigung Mama & Gae-In!!!

CUT!!! This episode have to end!

It's Not Goodbye..

And what if I never kiss your lips again
Or feel the touch of your sweet embrace
How would I ever go on
Without you there's no place to belong

Well someday love is gonna lead you back to me
But 'til it does I'll have an empty heart
So I'll just have to believe
Somewhere out there you thinking of me

Until the day I'll let you go
Until we say our next hello
It's not goodbye
'Til I see you again
I'll be right here rememberin' when
And if time is on our side
There will be no tears to cry
On down the road
There is one thing I can't deny
It's not goodbye

You'd think I'd be strong enough to make it through
And rise above when the rain falls down
But it's so hard to be strong
When you've been missin' somebody so long

It's just a matter of time I'm sure
But time takes time and I can't hold on
So won't you try as hard as you can
To put my broken heart together again

Until the day I'll let you go
Until we say our next hello
It's not goodbye
'Til I see you again
I'll be right here rememberin' when
And if time is on our side
There will be no tears to cry
On down the road
There is one thing I can't deny
It's not goodbye

STRUGGLE

The decision I made today may not be the best one. But, how can things be so WRONG when the intention is so RIGHT? It's a STRUGGLE to come to a decision. I am at a crossroad unknown of what lies ahead for me. God, help me...

If you love me, tell me. If you want me, say so. I don't play by IMPLIED TERMS. Your definition of "UNDERSTOOD" requires qualification at my end. And who else could have qualify those unspoken intention better than yourself? I will not want to go by presumption, because such assumption can be so easily denied in a moment of despair.

The echoes said I will struggle next. I am struggling now too. And, should I continue with this struggle though I knew the fact that there's nothing awaits me at the end of the tunnel?

"I am extremely exhausted".. that's what I told Nad that night.

I am STRUGGLING in the BIG SEA and theres's nothing around me to show that I'm reaching the shore. And I don't know how long more, where to and what I am STRUGGLING for...

The Passing of Mdm Kwa Geok Choo (Mrs Lee Kwan Yew)

Mdm Kwa Geok Choo (Mrs Lee Kwan Yew) passed away today (2 October 2010) at the age of 89. May her soul rest in peace..

I will always remember her as a great woman who was always by her husband side. Before the news of her critical condition hits the headline, she was always by his (MM Lee) side.  She must have been a great wife for her husband to passionately quote:

“If she weren’t an influence, supposing I had married somebody else, I might have become a different person, not that I would be a different person, but the things that I would have been able to do, the kind of backdrop I would have had, family, support, would have been different.”

I want to be like her! Not that I want to be a minister's wife, duh! I want to be by my husband's side always. Supporting him always!

I hope, just hoping, that he will also remember me as fondly as how MM Lee remembers his wife and that he would keep me company and cherish me till death do us part.  And not shun me when my wrinkles become visible!

Honey, let's grow old together!

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The Loaf

I'm all excited today! All because of 'The Loaf'!!